Unbearable Pain: A Personal Battle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a overcast weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches typically start with severe pain behind a single eye that persists for several hours.
About one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.
What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were not in pain.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.
Still, the failure to organize life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.
Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Ancient healing records propose unusual treatments for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.
In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.
Despite such advances, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.
Official guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some individuals.
But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive therapy only. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.
The official guidelines need revising to reflect a